I wanna be jewish !!!

One conclusion: You're jew, you're loaded !!!!

It doesn't matter what nationality you are, if you celebrate Hannukah, you got some money trashed away some where. So I decided that I want to be a jew and every morning I wake up and believe it so much, until i see my bank account and realize that I'm really agnostic (banilejo for all those who love to mention that).

What is it about jews that makes them so powerful, they are in every upper level social status in the world, they run many companies internationally and have overseas bank account. But at the end of the day, they are as cheap as we all have to be, and not only that, they are usually very family oriented. Despite the riches they enjoy their lives and that is worth much more then all the money in the world.

So hopefully, one of these mornings, I'll wake up a jew and start doing the things in life that cost more then just loose change. Until then, i couldn't be more happy then i am right now.

When to kiss...

Do we always know exactly what the precise moment is to kiss? What if there is no moment? What if that kiss that you are so anxious to give is not as rewarding as you expected it to be? There are many reasons for which one might have to establish the foundations on that first kiss or no reasons what so ever, only that gut feeling that at a certain moment you want to feel your hands on another person, bodies compressed and lips locked in what would seem to be a trail of the perfect first kiss (which we should actually call it the "initiation kiss" - cause with my experience, and i assume the experience of my readers, we have shared ONE TO MANY "first kisses"). The mystery of the kiss is infinite, you never know how the other person will react. What if the kiss was not right? What if the receiver does not like the taste of your mouth, or the way you open (or don't open your mouth at all), what if your presumptions of being a great kisser don't work? Is it wrong to feel that maybe you aren't a good kisser even though you know you are. Then the flashes come straight through, you realize it's done....No more going back, that one kiss can change everything, it will either open doors or shut them tight. You shouldn't judge a book by its cover, then why judge a kiss? What if you kissed just to kiss, sounds redundant i know, but what if you were really looking for that kiss not to just be a kiss, you were hoping to activate in yourself some secret powers hidden deep within you... then what, there's nothing then just an interaction of lips and tounges.. When it's all done you hope to see a smile on your receivers face, maybe a hand held tighter or even better, a strong held hug. But what if after the kiss there's nothing there, you're gone. How would you know if anything was right, how would you know if it was worth it. So let's go back to the purpose of this posting: When do we kiss? Do we have to wait until there is an internal urge in your whole body to express this emotion? Do we have to hold it back until you can at least know the persons' name? Where is the pleasure in a kiss if there is no magical spark? OR what if that spark is only activated by that kiss? As i write this i can't get out of my head that i'm probably just giving it to much thought, but i'm not. I haved kissed many but never really felt that magic firework (actually with one person I believe) explode in my system. Is this a normal reaction for me (or anyone who relates to this)? Are we just cold hearted? All i know is that I confess to the world that i want to be swept off my feet by my soul mate and then if i ever have the opportunity in my lifetime to find this person i will then know that when to kiss is no more of an issue but a blessing.

The value of loss

I recently went thru, what i thought was, a crisis. My stubborn self tipped over a full cup of iced tea over my always worn accessory, my cell phone. All my numbers were stored in the memory of this phone and of course with today's technology, we don't exercise our minds anymore with recording numbers in our head, we just name them and look for them in our address book.

It is when you lose something that you know the true value of it. I was able to realize one simple truth..I will never need more then a few available slots to save phone numbers. This is the moment when you can really figure out how to clean your phone.... I know in occasions you've grabbed your cell (usually in the bathroom or while trying to sleep) and looked over your contact list, searching for something, yet you dont know what it is, so you decide to erase some numbers or make some phone calls to those who you probably didn't even remember you had in speed dial.

What's the use, i knew from the moment my cell died that there was no turning back, I had left my wireless status behind and exercised my mind once more. I'm glad that the numbers that are important to me are still in my head, and im glad that after getting my replacement in only one day (thank u t-mobile for having such an excellent cust service), i have received very limited calls, mostly family. This only enlightens me more that the ones that i know are my friends, dont need to provide me with an empty memory slot, they will find a way to get in touch with me.

Please, to my readers, don't take this as a lonely posting, cause it's not. It only proves that people you meet have a particular reason in your life, most of them for just a moment, some of them for months at a time and very few to become a part of your life.

All in all, it's good to know that i dont need a cell phone full of names... I am lucky to know the people that i do and have learned from them all.